mufan86

So my dad has been drinking for some time now he says he is gonna quit..Yet he lies and hides vodka in the tool box in the garage I know this cause I caught him sipping from it. He will buy a tall boy and drinking down fast so no one knows. He lies and says he is done, or he hasn't had any. Parents get in a fight he has no clue why, he is uncapable of taking care of him self anymore, he used to be able to cook good meals and such now he doesn't know shit. Once I caught him sneaking the shit. I started tossing all the shit in the house... I am tired of it cause I cant focus on school and shit.. For all you people who say well move out and crap fuck off... I got out of the Navy a few years back looked for jobs in my small town no one is hiring and have looked in other towns.. I am a full time college student now on low income so I can't afford my own fucking place and no one in this town knows anything bout being roommates so before you start talking shit know the situation and that life is not easy.

My anger has built up my suicidal part of me is starting to come back from my horrid middle school days. I feel like I wanna hurt something, break something, punch something, or harm myself. I really wanna leave this place and just quit school even though I am almost into Nursing school and have a lot going for me right now. I can't take this shit anymore... I just wanna give up. He doesn't understand the effect of what he is doing is having on us as the family.. I have told him before and he stopped but then started up again.. Maybe I should just pack my shit and leave for a few days and see what happens? I doubt he will change though. He says he is gonna do shit never does. He has been saying for the past 6 months or so he was gonna go to the Va and try to finish his shit so when he goes my mom is taken care of but yet he never makes an attempt to get up there. He has PTSD from his time in the military.