Ah fucknuts and shitsticks!
I'm losing my internet connection at home. I've got less than a month before I need to start up my connection at the studio, so I might just wait it out. I don't want to pay for both home and the studio...that'd just be too EXTRAVAGANT!
It figures I restart my membership and this happens. Oh well, if this is the most annoying part about divorce I should be so lucky.
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Just had an impromptu visit from M.....came to pick up some more stuff. Somehow our 400 + cd collection is now whittled down to about 100 that now live on my floor. They look lonely. Just like me. I nearly put my cigarette out on my arm because I just can't stand feeling this much any more. I'm raw. I'm an oozing, pustule of pain. And then I remembered that I am 28, not 15, and that I'd end up having to get it covered up by tattoos and I don't have the money for that yet. If I need to feel something other than this I need to go listen to cd's from care packages and knit. So that's what I'm going to do right now...despite the fact that my life is a giant exposed nerve, pulsating and glistening in all its angry red glory, there are small mercies that soothe me.
I'm losing my internet connection at home. I've got less than a month before I need to start up my connection at the studio, so I might just wait it out. I don't want to pay for both home and the studio...that'd just be too EXTRAVAGANT!
It figures I restart my membership and this happens. Oh well, if this is the most annoying part about divorce I should be so lucky.
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Just had an impromptu visit from M.....came to pick up some more stuff. Somehow our 400 + cd collection is now whittled down to about 100 that now live on my floor. They look lonely. Just like me. I nearly put my cigarette out on my arm because I just can't stand feeling this much any more. I'm raw. I'm an oozing, pustule of pain. And then I remembered that I am 28, not 15, and that I'd end up having to get it covered up by tattoos and I don't have the money for that yet. If I need to feel something other than this I need to go listen to cd's from care packages and knit. So that's what I'm going to do right now...despite the fact that my life is a giant exposed nerve, pulsating and glistening in all its angry red glory, there are small mercies that soothe me.
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It totally WILL get better. I've never been happier in my life now, and I felt horrible during the divorce. Um I don't know what else to say that isn't a cliche 'cause I can't pretend to know you. Feel free to email me though if you want a divorce buddy (oer maybe that could be a new SG group?)
was the worst part of getting divorced. The pictures are still in the other's
custody as of yet undivided over a year later cause we just don't want to deal.
I prescribv lots of chocolate. Take care!