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So I love this name. I kinda wish it was my REAL name! 
LOTS of changes happening. As you can see.. no more Hopeful tag. LOL its liberating in a way.. kinda of sad in another. Regardless.. I feel wonderful about the decision. I think I still have to wait the 3 months before I can take down the last set. Enjoy it while you...
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LOTS of changes happening. As you can see.. no more Hopeful tag. LOL its liberating in a way.. kinda of sad in another. Regardless.. I feel wonderful about the decision. I think I still have to wait the 3 months before I can take down the last set. Enjoy it while you...
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Go back to read that other blog. It will explain where I have been and what I have been doing.
I just got this PM from a new friend. A friend that I can see is going to be around for awhile. She is a very nice and insightful woman and I am so glad she found me. We all need at least ONE person...
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I just got this PM from a new friend. A friend that I can see is going to be around for awhile. She is a very nice and insightful woman and I am so glad she found me. We all need at least ONE person...
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sjofn_:
all I said was some words... You though your the one that took it in action and became what you are right now, that my dear was your choice and only yours .... so the credit goes to you and not me.... but still I say thank you.
The way I deal with myself is different then the words or advice I give other people, I just don't want you to be angry or sad I don't want it to consume you to were you never let good things happen to you...
I'm proud of what your becoming keep it up, you become stronger every day
The way I deal with myself is different then the words or advice I give other people, I just don't want you to be angry or sad I don't want it to consume you to were you never let good things happen to you...
I'm proud of what your becoming keep it up, you become stronger every day
brooklynbabe:
Take some time out for yourself to heal and stop rebounding! LOL Easier said than done of course. YOu will feel sooooo much better once you slough through the muck of relationships past. Not for anyone but YOURSELF. And the day will come that you will find someone that you can spend the rest of your life with. No need to condem yourself to just the 'fun' chick. You can be fun and be in a long term relationship.
I'm a 'Miss Good Time' girl but I know I am deserving of a loving relationship and I won't give up hope just because of mistakes made in the past and you shouldn't either. Take this time to heal yourself inside and out, and at the same time don't lose your optimism. Even if you don't feel like being optimistic right now.
hugs&kisses!
I agree with you about SG. Love the site, but it is much different than it used to be.
I'm a 'Miss Good Time' girl but I know I am deserving of a loving relationship and I won't give up hope just because of mistakes made in the past and you shouldn't either. Take this time to heal yourself inside and out, and at the same time don't lose your optimism. Even if you don't feel like being optimistic right now.
hugs&kisses!
I agree with you about SG. Love the site, but it is much different than it used to be.
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freudianslip:
well, that's rough. because I haven't seen the person mentioned for 21/2 years...... and every night it's the same.
Love stinks.
Love stinks.
nina_kova:
thank you sweet fishii!!!
People make mistakes. Ya guess what, it happens.
Airing dirty laundry in public is soooo classy.
Wait, arent we supposed to be letting things go? hmmm I got a fucking long ass list of shit for ya to "let go" hun. But than again, you WERE always good at pointing a finger but forgetting to look in the mirror.
Wow, I feel better. Its amazing...
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Airing dirty laundry in public is soooo classy.
Wait, arent we supposed to be letting things go? hmmm I got a fucking long ass list of shit for ya to "let go" hun. But than again, you WERE always good at pointing a finger but forgetting to look in the mirror.
Wow, I feel better. Its amazing...
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wsoxfan:
That's probably my favorite Nina Simone song. I love Nina. Her music is so gritty and tells real life stories.
Keep doing whatever you need to in order to heal.
Keep doing whatever you need to in order to heal.
brooklynbabe:
And that is how it should be! Living life for ourselves and not others.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
I was dreaming all night. I was dreaming that I had my own little apartment. I got to paint the walls, and buy all NEW furniture for it. I got to decorate it like I wanted. I was healed and had a job that made me smile everyday and the biggest thing was I got to travel. I went to see Pagz and marvel first....
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i___zombie:
you need a vacation to Sin City!
jewelz:
I'm not quite sure where to start Fishii...this blog hurts my heart in that I know you're going through some dark times and I wish I could be there to hold your hand and give you hugz right now! I'm sorry that I did not know about the breakup love...I'm still trying to get caught up from being a ghost for a month or so!
I know you are prolly up to your ass in friend calls, etc but if you'd like one, I'm here for you anytime! I just got a new blackberry last night, so I'm hoping being able to have internet access wherever I am will give me the opportunity to get back to being around more often. I love you
I know you are prolly up to your ass in friend calls, etc but if you'd like one, I'm here for you anytime! I just got a new blackberry last night, so I'm hoping being able to have internet access wherever I am will give me the opportunity to get back to being around more often. I love you
Dearest SG,
sigh
I am having my 8th surgery late next week. Skin cannot grow on tendon alone so I am getting a skin graft. My diabetes is so very weak from all the surgeries before and mow from my emotions that I actually signed paperwork today instructing on what my wishes are. It NEEDS to be done. There s nothing protecting my tendon and...
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I am having my 8th surgery late next week. Skin cannot grow on tendon alone so I am getting a skin graft. My diabetes is so very weak from all the surgeries before and mow from my emotions that I actually signed paperwork today instructing on what my wishes are. It NEEDS to be done. There s nothing protecting my tendon and...
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forcefield:
Gorgeous photo!
mrs_misha:
here is a kiss for you... feel better fishii
so first a breakup, and now my meds are making me nauseous and dizzy.
ya life is GRAND.
not everything that happens in public. sometimes there are things that happen behind closed doors.
regardless, its over.
ya life is GRAND.
not everything that happens in public. sometimes there are things that happen behind closed doors.
regardless, its over.
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brooklynbabe:
I'm sorry you are going through this darling. If it is any consolation- one day you will begin to feel better. Take it from someone who knows all about a broken heart. Now you have all the reason to spoil yourself silly and do whatever you please. love you lots :-*
lilli:
love you sweetie. sending love and light and strength. and great big hugs!
My relationship is over.
Congratulations to the people that thought we wouldnt last. You won.
I guess long distance won too.
That and I am not someone worth loving... or making an effort for.
Goodbye. Its been fun... but I cant take this pain in my body and pain in my heart.
Congratulations to the people that thought we wouldnt last. You won.
I guess long distance won too.
That and I am not someone worth loving... or making an effort for.
Goodbye. Its been fun... but I cant take this pain in my body and pain in my heart.
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nina_kova:
what happened???? pm me or send me a message on facebook.....total hugs. 
coccinelle:
oh no i am pretty sorry about that
you could talk to me, any time you need
xoxo
you could talk to me, any time you need
xoxo
Please go read Wednesdays post. Its important to me.
I am moving next week, and so I didnt pay the cable bill. I did that on purpose. I thought I had another 2 weeks but apparently I didnt. I dont have internet at the moment.
I CAN steal a signal, but it keeps going in and out.
I WILL be going to the office to...
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I am moving next week, and so I didnt pay the cable bill. I did that on purpose. I thought I had another 2 weeks but apparently I didnt. I dont have internet at the moment.
I CAN steal a signal, but it keeps going in and out.
I WILL be going to the office to...
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mr_c:
Good luck in the move.
johnnyu:
Fishiii, i soooooo wish things work out for u and start to break (no pun intended) ur way!!!
Wait...what?