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Tuesday Mar 24, 2009

Mar 24, 2009
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Dearest SG,

sigh
I am having my 8th surgery late next week. Skin cannot grow on tendon alone so I am getting a skin graft. My diabetes is so very weak from all the surgeries before and mow from my emotions that I actually signed paperwork today instructing on what my wishes are. It NEEDS to be done. There s nothing protecting my tendon and it can get infected and the infection go up my leg quickly.
So what do do when you have given your life to everyone else and left nothing for you? When there was a time that you needed to be selfish yet felt bad and still gave and gave until now there is nothing left but an empty shell.? I have nothing left inside me now. Too many surgeries, too many let downs and now too much heartache. What exactly do I have left?
Nothing.
I really hope that you actually take the time to listen to these songs. Maybe take the time as well to tell someone you love them. Tell them and MEAN it. Tell them that you will always be there, and SHOW it, as words are just empty letter that fly out of our mouths. Take the time to make someones heart beat a little faster. They might be in a place where they desperately need it.

These 2 videos are not for any ONE person. They are fo everyone that has touched my heart in a good way, and bad. Please know that love is all around you and all it takes is a brief moment to see it, and accept it into your heart.







Love Always,

Amy
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