I know i promised a picture blog... but I didnt take all the pics I wanted. So it will have to be tomorrow or Saturday. I promise.
TODAY tho, I have a few things to say, and I have no delusions as to you all actually reading this. I personally think most of you skim and pick out what YOU feel is important. On a long blog with lots of stuff in it, I dont blame you. Just dont try to read between the lines.. I dont beat around the bush much.
I hate this term. A woman called me this morning and asked me the exact date of my first surgery. I said after 5 years of 7 surgeries and a ton of pain meds, I didnt have that information. She actually said "well FYI you SHOULD have it. Its YOUR job as a patient to now these kind of things." I replied "well for YOUR information I am the patient. And its MY job ot heal. Its YOUR job to find this out so go do your job. I dont feel well and home health care is on their way so if you dont have any more questions that I cant answer than I will be going."
I dont think she likes me much.
Am I supposed to care? I hope not.
I should probably warn you. I am kinda in a crappy mood. AL and I had a great conversation last night, but I was telling him WHY I am in a crappy mood. He is so sweet. Made me feel better and I slept great.. although woke up feeling pretty shitty.
I woke up feeling this way today. My blood sugars are a bit high. Kinda scares me because this is how i felt when I was admitted in the hospital. *worried* My doctor wasnt concerned with my foot the other day. He says that the antibiotics will kill ANYTHING. But then he says I might still loose my toe. ok mees confused.
SO my body is acting like it did a few weeks ago... this makes me unhappy.
puking would be so nice akshully.
I dont need help actually. I am posting this so that everyone knows that I cant be the help everyone needs right now. I am noticing that since I came back from Tucson (not that its MY fault, its just a coincidence) not only MY life has been in chaos but a lot of my friends lives are too. People are getting and staying sick. People are stressing. People are lying much more than normal, and People are feeling more helpless than usual. At first I thought it was the holidays, but the holidays are freaking over and its not getting better.
I am just reminding everyone that I will have my days too. I will have days where I struggle to get out of bed. I am not ready to go back to work but guess what? I will be on Sunday. It will be good for me I think.
So please just keep that in mind.
So guess whats arriving probably today?
Ignore the random girl...
MY PICC LINE COVER!! the wonderful Mamhth wanted to do something nice for me and bought it. VERY nice of him... VERY. I will now be able to take a real shower. No more using a whole roll of tape.. no more using this:
Which is easier to get on and off than the tape.. but I cant hold the shower head and only have one hand!
I am really excited!! Like really really. This man has made it possible for me to take a shower like everyone else.. and it will be so much easier than before. No more waxing of the arm from the tape (sorry AL for me crying about that ) I am not showering today until it comes. I found out that it is at the Fed X building here i9n ABQ and will probably be here today.. tomorrow at the latest. I am taking a sponge bath today so I dont stink.. and than when I get my PICC cover... its shower time!!
I almost just peed a little bit!
So what am I doing today? I am meeting with my Home Health Care nurse Sabine. She is drawing blood from the PICC line and changing the dressing. Then I am sponge bathin it.. unless the cover comes soon. Then its off to therapy. Yes I am therapy.
*insert proud face*
THEN butrcup79 is coming over and we are going to Walgreens. I need a few things and I am feeling a bit lonely. She is such a good friend. I lovers her a LOT!
OH my 3 things.... hmmmmm
1. my Hello Kitty bathrobe. SOOOO warm!
2. some special tea that Tempest Suicide sent me.
*btw where the fuck IS that girl?? hmmm needs to find her*
3. butrcup79, Mamhth, and aldremech just three of the people that have made me happy today! Without them I would still be in bed, sick and upset!
Fishii
And PS.. this damn IV is really getting on my nerves. I have to get the bandage changed every week when Sabine comes and the effing tape is causing a rash. We have to keep an eye on it... its NOT a good thing y'all. It hurts and itches... and just LOOKING at the IV pole is pissing me off.
Another month another month another month another month
I can do this I can do this I can do this I can do this
Did I mention that I am getting frustrated with all this health stuff??
FYI I didn't skim through your blog...and I remember the Topps sticker product paradies, alas I lost all of mine. I'm with ya on the Ram-a-liar road trip...I got a real mean tire iron behind the seat of my pick'em up truck (I really do actually)...fun on the interstate!!!!! AND I'll let you borrow my pool cue. That blue thingy in the picture, looks the "Motorman's Friend" device...could come in handy on a long road trip. ; )
Love ya, rock on chicky baby!
PS-so can ya name the chick in the previous Beatles video you posted that was with Ringo?
Love ya, rock on chicky baby!
PS-so can ya name the chick in the previous Beatles video you posted that was with Ringo?