Oh shitbollocksfuck.
Having been on this planet for long enough there are a few things about myself which I am aware of and have gradually learned to accept. One is.....well it's my 'time of the month' for want of a better descrpition. You can tally it up with the New Moon, Full Moon situation but my personal circumstances are this: During the first week of each month I have an absolutely shit time, emotionally and everything.
Yesterday? End of the month and I had a great day. I was happy, funny, energetic...everything.
Today? Beginning of the month. Shit day. It all went pear shaped when I started people watching at lunchtime and felt a little chink in the emotional armour. I also learned that 3 of the 6 dealers on my desk have already been offered fresh contracts with the new firm and, furthermore, they have each been offered a retainer of at least 25,000 ($40,000). If they stay with the new firm for a minimum 12 months they get the cheque; I am still to be offerd such a deal. Also, driving back from Pizza Hut in the rain and I have just scraped the side of my car against my gate post. Not as bad as when I wrote off the jag but still looks expensive to fix. And now, to add insult to injury, I have a piece of pepperoni wedged in between the # and Return key and i won't come out.
I am flying to London tomorrow. Knowing my current mood and luck (being the beginning of the month) if the plane does eventually take off (owing to the current poor weather) it will crash and I will die horribly and slowly.
I hate everything.
Shitbollocksfuck.
Having been on this planet for long enough there are a few things about myself which I am aware of and have gradually learned to accept. One is.....well it's my 'time of the month' for want of a better descrpition. You can tally it up with the New Moon, Full Moon situation but my personal circumstances are this: During the first week of each month I have an absolutely shit time, emotionally and everything.
Yesterday? End of the month and I had a great day. I was happy, funny, energetic...everything.
Today? Beginning of the month. Shit day. It all went pear shaped when I started people watching at lunchtime and felt a little chink in the emotional armour. I also learned that 3 of the 6 dealers on my desk have already been offered fresh contracts with the new firm and, furthermore, they have each been offered a retainer of at least 25,000 ($40,000). If they stay with the new firm for a minimum 12 months they get the cheque; I am still to be offerd such a deal. Also, driving back from Pizza Hut in the rain and I have just scraped the side of my car against my gate post. Not as bad as when I wrote off the jag but still looks expensive to fix. And now, to add insult to injury, I have a piece of pepperoni wedged in between the # and Return key and i won't come out.
I am flying to London tomorrow. Knowing my current mood and luck (being the beginning of the month) if the plane does eventually take off (owing to the current poor weather) it will crash and I will die horribly and slowly.
I hate everything.
Shitbollocksfuck.