mrcrisp

getting acclimated to my new schedule has been a total pain in the ass. the shift week that i just completed tuesday morning, i worked from 1200 to 0000 for seven days in a row. now, wednesday evening, i'm about to start my next shift week: 2000 to 0800 for seven days in a row. that means i had 36 hours off work. 36 hours to get used to a completely different sleep schedule. nuh uh, not happening. after getting off work tuesday morning, i stayed up until 0900 and then passed out, only to wake up at 1330. i tried to stay up all last night again, but i ended up crashing at around 0500. and then woke up at 1400. fuck. it's going to take forever to get used to this new sleeping schedule, and when i finally do i'll just be on a completely new schedule.

i have work in 4 hours and all i want is a beer.

i really don't understand my life right now. i don't have time to. occasionally i'll get a brief moment of clarity, out of my trance, where i wonder just where the hell i am. and then it's back to work.

assimilation nearly complete. total dissolution of individuality underway.

i just want to see california again.