mrcrisp

moving now. took long enough. will take longer to get it accomplished now that i have to go back to work tonight.

haven't had a good meal since yesterday afternoon and so there's hunger to deal with too. will eat tonight, if moved in time. the move should involve very little: just toss all the clothes in the seabag and take them away. i have a lot more clothes here than i remember.

fatigue is still an issue, still hard to stay awake in class. blood tests came back negative. it's probably the not eating. it's probably the not sleeping. it's probably the fact that this place is wearing me out. it's probably something else, but admitting that would be like asking to go home.

took the math test today, never had problems with math until the test, until, perusing the test through sore eyes, i realized that i didn't know how to do any of it. results in tomorrow. should be interesting. still undecided as to whether i should care about passing or not. still undecided as to whether i'd rather finish up this program and have a bright future or go somewhere else and not.

honestly, i'm sicking of doing the right thing, getting the best, being well off. it doesn't feel like i'm actually living.

i remember the days when i used to be able to live out of my seabag. time to go to salvation army, dump some of this crap.

but yeah, back to moving.

update: got a 3.24 on my math exam. can i ever do worse than a 3.2? ugh.