mrbaker

My Ex, whom I consider my best friend now* is in a power exchange relationship (she's the sub) with her husband. Great! I'm happy for her, because I love her so very much, and I know its making her very happy...
From what I know of her Dom/Husband he's a great guy (which also makes me very happy)...
You know what though, it feels like shit when she suddenly logs off chat without even saying anything. I have to text her "Goodbye I guess " to even get the simple explanation of "Daddy says its bedtime".
If I ever did anything remotely similar to her, I'd never hear the end of it. I do understand that it WAS late for her, and she does have to listen to her Dom, but all I want is a little courtesy...like as if she respected me too...
And its not like this is even the first time she's just left me hanging in the middle of a conversation, it happens...kind of a lot..
Feeling as if she doesn't really respect me hurts so very much...



*Its been a long struggle, and at times its been really difficult for me to stay "friends" with her (on one end of the spectrum or the other) but she means so very much to me; is so important in my life, that I hope we'll always be as close as we've been lately.


Anyway...I should be happy. The gal I have a date pretty much said she couldn't wait to see me, and rather than waiting until after her spring break, we're moving it up to this weekend. I'm excited. Really taking control and planning the details (I'll confirm everything with her, of course). I want her to see the strong, confident, take-control side of me that I can project when I'm actually comfortable with someone. Thing is, she actually makes me feel comfortable! I never really had that with my Ex, its a nice change.
Then again, maybe I've changed. I know I have, a lot...and I really like it.