mrbaker

I don't want to do anything. I'm feeling really apathetic. I think I'm getting depressed again. I don't want to do this again, its been so long sense I've had to struggle with this, and I don't think I can deal with it another time. I need to get out of this funk. I desperately want to be happy again, purely happy. I'd say it would be easier if I had someone to love again, but I will not make my happiness contingent on someone else...it would be more accurate to say that I just want someone to invest in, to share my life with, to cuddle with and kiss. I miss human contact, even though my last relationship didn't offer very much of it (long distance). Its getting to the point where I'd actually consider a simple, casual fling, but that is hard for me, because my body follows my heart; I have to be falling for someone to really be comfortable with them physically. I'm ranting. I'm depressed. I don't want this anymore. (help)

Mr.Baker