mr_maxiebond

soo ive got a new job i love n ive kept it for a month n plan to keep it for a fucking long time,i hit my month anniversary of giving up warcraft and my account has expired n i plan NEVER to visit the site again,im playing bass again,i have got back in to piercing again n plan to start an apprenticeship in the next few weeks...the girls at the peircing joint in queen st have realy taken a shine to me,ive started drawing again for the first time in over a yr n my head is actualy working n im getting new ideas n im inspired.about the only thing im not doing which id love to do is sk8ing again n i put it down to getting a lil older and the fact if i come of on my left wrist it could be the end of it.wells i feel like a new man n ive had a lot of friends say they notice a big change in me n are happy bout it....my only wish is that it could have happend a HELL of a lot sooner.these simple changes of made have inriched my life n could have spared a lot of heart break n self confidence issues ive had over the last few months even years but hey hey as the saying goes to lil to late right....BA fuck that shit its never to late to make ya self feel good.im sick to fuck of trying to please ppl that dont give a shit its my life n as far as im concerned its all bout me,il meet new ppl ill find a new girl n im surely on the path to a new happier life.id love to fix things with my ol life n start a fresh cuz i know i can but ive put so much effort in to it n i keep getting screwed its time to move forward to bigger n better things!!!unfortunately i have a bad case of not knowing what i have till its gone n doing a shit ass job of trying to get it back or the time has just fucking passed n i missed my chance.i also have a hell of a time beliving what ppl say or express to me when its fucking bullshit that n falling for lil things that are ment to make me feel good n not hert my feelings....well im sick of that shit if those ppl cant b fucking real with me they cant be with them selves either!i have a new zest for life thank fuck cuz it was close to ending its funny how jamming a needle throu some one can just give you that spark for life again...dont worry i dont expect you to understand that or any thing else ive rambled.

edit:im thinking alot of the move on shit is what id like to belive,when the fact is i miss her so fucking much n this is the only girl throu all the shit i find out after the fact i dont give a shit i still just wanna wake holding her n see her happy smile when we start our day together again AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK y the hell do i keep telling my self theres a chance when i know i fucked every thing n its to danm fucking late...i need a fucking labotomy