moya

I'm not sure why I wake up at 6:30 when I have my alarm set for 7, or 7:30 on some days.. My roommate doesn't even have to wake up until 9..
She ended up moving in on the fifth, and so far, we're getting along okay. We talk about the normal things, and I try to not be so picky/close-minded, so.. I've seen the Aviator, and have heard the latest cds of Incubus and Jason Mraz.. I'm alive.. Though, last night after her movie, before anything could be done, I put in A Clockwork Orange. I'm not sure if she liked it, she said she'd only seen parts of it in school.. My school would have burnt itself, had anyone shown that inside its walls..

My computer is being a dipshit, and the internet is half shitty, because the way the cord is, it's half being pulled out of the wall because it has to go over the ledge of the window which, I guess the weight of the cord is too much, but keeps pulling it down.. Pictures do not show up for me anymore, I can't click on any tab half the time, sometimes when I click on Internet Explorar, nothing happens.. Not to mention this seems to be a really shitty computer anyway. I want a new one damnit!

I had my freshman seminar, Ethnic Studies: Celtic Film as Fact and Fiction at 8 am yesterday, which wasn't so bad, my instructor has a really strong accent.. Then at 10, I had my Medieval Europe/Early Middle Ages class, which I almost fell asleep during.. I've already got a 5 page paper due in early November.. No wonder I hate school.. I'm not sure I'll like the class.

I'm hungry and tired,. No, starving and tired. My feet itch/hurt, but I've been going for uber long walks everyday to get some exercise, mostly down to the beach. Good memories are there, at the beach and the park..
Today I have World History to 1500 at 9, Survey of Astronomy at 11, and Essentials of Algebra at 2 because I'm dumb at mathematics. I need to buy folders to keep my stuff together..There is so much paperwork.. I need a filing system..

I've thought alot over the past few days, I've said a few things to some people that needed to be said. I've made some huge decisions that will now have time to play out. Though I still need to tell some people a few things, I think it'll work out in time.

My heart seems to be in someone elses hands, whether or not they know it, and the knife is dangling on a thin string right above it. No, I'm not in complete insane love with someone, but more of..that love you feel for a certain individual who deserves your effort to perhaps help it grow into that in the future. Er..well, it's so hard to explain. It's just that to get there, the road is very rocky and covered in glass shards. I'm trying to not bolt the opposite direction, for both our sakes, to keep two hearts in tact.

That sounded really sappy, I apologize.. I'm not sure how to explain it, really, but it neded to get out. I'm feeling walls slowly go back up inside of me, for my own protection, and I just want to find out if it's what I really should be doing. I don't want to close myself off too much that this ends up not being able to work at some point in time. That makes so sense.. Oh well.

I think I'm going to get dressed and go get breakfast in the cafeteria. I need something healthy, chips and crackers for breakfast is not healthy.. *dies*
I wish pictures on here worked.. I can't even see the emoticons, so I hope I got them all out correctly while writing them..

*Edited to add: Something major is about to come up in the next very few days that's going to cause alot of pain. I've kept it a secret. Be warned.