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He sits here and sticks his tongue out at me now. I sent my sister alot of pictures of him earlier.. I have quite a few . Anyway, we're unsure of when they're picking him up. It'll be different with him gone. I'll be a little sad, but it just means I should go hang out at the new pet store when a friend is working and play with the gerbils or salamanders or something.

I was invited out this morning for saturday evening, to my friend kim's house, who's basement it was I got drunk in last time. I told them I'd definately stop in for a few hours and hang around until early morning, but no drinky because I have to work sunday. SO, of course since I started to look forward to it, things got screwy, and it's either cancalled, relocated to some place where I have no clue is, or rescheduled to exclude some people.. Someone called me while I was napping, and so.. I can't exactly remember the conversation..

After I hung out with inked4life, I drove around, and ended up here, my special spot.




*Edited to add: That's Milwaukee in the distance.


That's the waste treatment center. Those two round things hold the city's supply of shit. I still swim in that lake, though! My special little place. I froze my ass off for those pictures, including running back to my car, so enjoy, god damnit, I say, enjoy.

My sister no longer has days off.. So I think I might just go to her boyfriends parents house and visit Rambo cuteness, and perhaps the boyfriends' sister will be there. She's awesome. Getting married. I never really ever talked to her, save once. She wants to give me a makeover .

I miss my sister. I miss my cousin Laura, who's so far away. I miss my cousin Kristy, we're so much alike. She's a married woman now, and I haven't talked to her since December. I miss that entire side of the family, even though they live 2 blocks away. It's been 2 and a half months. *Supposing* I'd like to work on getting my fathers approval back, I'd have to discontinue any contact with them so he can't call me a traitor again..

It's funny, how things change in 365 days. Entire sides of families can get completely torn apart, and when you're too young to even do any damage or good, you're just bobbing about in the middle, unsure of what to do, always the one the anger is taken out on. I miss my aunt, my uncle, my cousins, the christmases, the other holidays, the laughter and jokes, the fishing outings, hunting, my grandma, bless her for having to deal with two sons sent straight from hell and one daughter in the nuthouse.

I need to find something to do tomorrow night so I'm not sitting around, moping at home. Sitting around in a broken down 'restaraunt' with dim, flickering, buzzing lighting, few customers, and a rude drunk at the counter being a complete jackass to his wife, and a distressed waitress is kind of depressing. Don't be rude to your wife. She'll apparently smack you with a shoe.