moya

Wow! Updates two days in a row!

My roommate left this morning on the bus back to Madison. I feel bad because I think she may have thought I'd be riding with her, for company on the way. Then I crawled into bed and cried the rest of the morning away. I just emerged from my blankets.

It's been a very horrible, uneventful, boring day. I don't think it could get any more boring. It was snowing out, I swear, just as I sat down. Oh, wait, if you wait fifteen minutes, it starts back up again.

I have a bad headache due to my actions of this morning. I think three Ibuprofen are in order. Looking out the window, I can just barely see the airplanes fly overhead, blending in with all the gray.

The snow is really coming down now. I want to go roll around in it. Who wears snowpants these days? My Rammstein dvd starts skipping to hell if I minimize the program, even when I open another document. This is really starting to piss me off. I want the music but I also want to surf the internet and play games. I guess it's time to get serious about looking for a new computer.
But since my roommate is gone, I can dance naked in here to my music.

Maybe when I'm done updating this. I don't think I'm going out tonight anyway. Not that I couldn't decide, but sadly, one option sort of just fell apart and the other will probably be over by 8 or 9 tonight anyway. I know buses back north run late, though by the hour or so, so if I got lonely enough, I could just take a bus home and call someone to pick me up.

My tamagotchi is just about old enough to have a visit from the matchmaker, I actually don't understand why it hasn't come yet. I'm on my fourth generation and I'm not ready to quit yet. I think I'm going to do my hair tonight. Not dye it, but mabe put some braids in again or something. It usually makes me happy. I'm starting to feel a bit aggressively violent in a randy way so I need to put my energy somewhere. Hooray for Rammstein and Combichrist to keep me company.

Maybe I'll go take a walk, too. I was walking around campus at 2:30 this morning and it was so pretty. Everything glowed orange from the lights, and the snow was shiny and felt good on my face. I was walking along, spinning between the buildings, getting so dizzy that I almost fell into the drifts.. I guess I'll maybe be doing that again tonight?

I'm reluctant to end this entry.. Like if I were to end it, I'd disconnect myself from everyone and everything. The world.

Let's get away, just for one day..
Let me see you stripped
Let me see you stripped

Let me hear you make decisions, without your television
Let me hear you speaking, just for me..

I'm bored. Someone entertain me.

My boobs feel bigger, I guess that's just my hormones getting ready for a week of hell. Something for me to play with tonight, atleast, eh?
I can understand why people delete thier older journal entries and throw away journals. The one from February, March, April, and so on, they're just so depressing. Not sure if I want to delete, though. I usually keep my journals, or print them off, because I know in the future I'll want to be able to reread over it all. But I know why people do that now.

I wish I had a camera. I want to take pictures of outside, and of myself, and post them. I wish I could have atleast brought my webcam. It's such a process doing it at home, resizing them, then sending each one here, then re-saving them on this computer..blah.

I'm starving. I'm kind of cold. My head feels slighlty better. I should have gone home, or gone somewhere, today. I think it's another night infront of the computer. Til I crack and go home. Or go to my sisters. I really just can't believe how depressed I am today. It's terrible.