I am sorry for my sadness...I cant really explain it but its overwhelming and I feel completely paralyzed by it. I dont want to talk about...That's just too much.
I just feel so depressed it's overwhelming. I have never felt this bad in my life. I can feel it physically and I just feel sick. In a month, I'll be having my head cut open and I dont know if I will wake up from it let alone how it's going to permanently damage my body and mind.
I cant explain this feeling. Its like standing in front of traffic and your too paralyzed to jump out of the way. What can I say....
It will pass, hopefully.
I know yall are trying to reach out but I just cant really handle even talking about this much more than this. I am sorry if that offends anyone. Its just too overwhelming of a feeling I cant explain it.
Please understand<3