Today is my sister's bday and it has been great day in that aspect but as for me personally its a day that I feel extra crappy. It seems like I should know this already so bare with me but it slapped me across the face that pretty much no one finds me attractive or if they do I haven't met them yet and man if that doesn't sting a little. Don't get me wrong I never really thought of myself as attractive by any definition of the word but that doesn't mean that I don't try to exude the best aura ever. I try to think of myself of somewhat handsome so that I can have the confidence to talk to women but the truth is that I am not attractive and it's pretty apparent now. I guess I am just going to stop trying to make any relationships with woman that aren't just platonic friendships. Love isn't for me right now and it does feel good to put this up and just let it all out. Love is not for me and I am not made for love.
