I am downreally, really down. I am so very tired of this black cloud that follows me...yeah, even my boss says I have a black cloud over me. Sometimes it just feels like nothing ever just works out for me, like everything has to be some kind of struggle. I do not want to struggle for everything forever. I want something good to fall into my lap for onceor at least have my hard work actually pay off. I want to not be in pain from my TMJ and arthritis for a day. I want to actually feel good instead of faking it. I want to stop catching every little virus. I want to stop worrying about everything all of the time.
Yeah, so, I have been having an especially hard time lately and tadamore crap. My insurance coverage changed from 2008 so now my surgery, that was going to cost me nothing out of pocket, will cost me well over $500. Fucking great2 weeks was the difference of $500+ dollars. I am fucking sick of all of the crazy expenses Ive had latelyI dont think Ill actually have money to do anything fun for months.
I just need a break from everything. I need to feel like things can be good and even easy sometimes. I need a fucking vacation from my life.
Yeah, so, I have been having an especially hard time lately and tadamore crap. My insurance coverage changed from 2008 so now my surgery, that was going to cost me nothing out of pocket, will cost me well over $500. Fucking great2 weeks was the difference of $500+ dollars. I am fucking sick of all of the crazy expenses Ive had latelyI dont think Ill actually have money to do anything fun for months.
I just need a break from everything. I need to feel like things can be good and even easy sometimes. I need a fucking vacation from my life.
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Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. Hang in there.... As you know, it's been really hard for us for pretty much all of 2008. But, slowly, things are falling into place.
So will for you. One day at a time. *hugs*