I just found out about 3 minutes ago that my ex-fiance is married. It's hard to explain, but I think some little part of my heart just died. I'm very happy in my relationship right now, but this was a hard wound to heal over for me and I don't quite know how to take it.
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I feel I need to quick type an edit here, as I don't think I dictated properly. My feelings are more feelings of anger than sadness or an internal boo-hoo for the fact that our relationship is over. I am glad it is over, but let me explain. He was quick to propose to me, then the girl he cheated on me with, and now his relationship with her is less than six months dead and he's married to some new chick. I have no sympathy for either of them, but what this is making me do is evaluate my own self worth. Clearly I was not special and that's what hurts; home boy just seemingly had some jones to get married to someone and didn't care about who--which is an odd fetish or desire to lust for if you ask me 'cause it seems like it could get expensive depending on the planning stages you advance to...
Anyways, that's that. I just felt I needed to clarify. The person that I am with now is ten times the man that my ex could ever strive to be, so there!!! I thumb my nose at prior suiters. Nanny nanny boo boo.
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I feel I need to quick type an edit here, as I don't think I dictated properly. My feelings are more feelings of anger than sadness or an internal boo-hoo for the fact that our relationship is over. I am glad it is over, but let me explain. He was quick to propose to me, then the girl he cheated on me with, and now his relationship with her is less than six months dead and he's married to some new chick. I have no sympathy for either of them, but what this is making me do is evaluate my own self worth. Clearly I was not special and that's what hurts; home boy just seemingly had some jones to get married to someone and didn't care about who--which is an odd fetish or desire to lust for if you ask me 'cause it seems like it could get expensive depending on the planning stages you advance to...
Anyways, that's that. I just felt I needed to clarify. The person that I am with now is ten times the man that my ex could ever strive to be, so there!!! I thumb my nose at prior suiters. Nanny nanny boo boo.
My friend's family has something lined up this week in Seattle. A little out of my way on short notice, but they know I'd be there if I could.
They'll do fine without me. I have the rest of my life to mourn his passing and celebrate the good times with him.