morgue

I don't know why .. I strive to be more positive and energetic to give the best of me and more this is seen as something bad. Mine is an effort that I'm accepting, despite everything. I'm making sacrifices and to feel good without having to ever hear me say or call "ball of lard", "Chubby shit", "Loser" and other "soft" nicknames.
It makes me angry, it hurts a lot.
It makes me think back a few years ago when I was ashamed to go out on Saturday .. because everyone laughed in the face to me.
I feel like crying to remembering that period. I brought those bad feelings for too many years and now that I'm making it right all seems pointless.
What's wrong?

Until today I felt strong and satisfied. Now I don't know anymore.Even the fact that I've tried to make a set it has given me an exceptional charge.

I think maybe it's time to come back down to earth. And stop dreaming.

Wake up Morgue