I would like to write something to cheer me up.
The two days were bad, yesterday and today. Really. To be forgotten.
The work does not fail even if the economic crisis is being felt on earnings, but now is not the time to complain. We feel fortunate after all.
Yesterday I had a bad fight with my boyfriend. I felt so vulnerable that I collapsed into tears, I have neither eaten nor slept.
I have always stood up but this time it was terribly" deadly" for me because I really love him even though there are problems that prevent us to be able to stay together as we would like.
The distance does not help us at the time and I understand that there are more important priorities.He asked me for the umpteenth time to go and live with him. h
He's looking for a accommodation but I have not set aside a nest egg that will allow us to live longer.
Mine is a seasonal job so it is 1000euro for 2 months. And what are you doing with 1,000 euros? NOTHING!
When I think about my future with him I can see only few things. For the rest? Nothing.
I know that things do not happen by themselves that it takes will to happen but it alone can not make them come true. I need him but I can not force him. What a mess!
As I write this I think of all the bad things we said and that we do not really think of each other.
Then later on this morning we made peace even though I'm still on the defensive.
I still feel him a bad feeling. I feel down in the dumps. I would like to think of nice things but I can not. And this week I do not see him. And I miss him so much.
He is organizing the Disengage Metal Fest with bands of the Italian scene. Last year was a huge success. I hope it will be the same this year.
The two days were bad, yesterday and today. Really. To be forgotten.
The work does not fail even if the economic crisis is being felt on earnings, but now is not the time to complain. We feel fortunate after all.
Yesterday I had a bad fight with my boyfriend. I felt so vulnerable that I collapsed into tears, I have neither eaten nor slept.
I have always stood up but this time it was terribly" deadly" for me because I really love him even though there are problems that prevent us to be able to stay together as we would like.
The distance does not help us at the time and I understand that there are more important priorities.He asked me for the umpteenth time to go and live with him. h
He's looking for a accommodation but I have not set aside a nest egg that will allow us to live longer.
Mine is a seasonal job so it is 1000euro for 2 months. And what are you doing with 1,000 euros? NOTHING!
When I think about my future with him I can see only few things. For the rest? Nothing.
I know that things do not happen by themselves that it takes will to happen but it alone can not make them come true. I need him but I can not force him. What a mess!
As I write this I think of all the bad things we said and that we do not really think of each other.
Then later on this morning we made peace even though I'm still on the defensive.
I still feel him a bad feeling. I feel down in the dumps. I would like to think of nice things but I can not. And this week I do not see him. And I miss him so much.
He is organizing the Disengage Metal Fest with bands of the Italian scene. Last year was a huge success. I hope it will be the same this year.
Well I hope that the week starts in the best way. I hope to send away the bad thoughts and to wake up better tomorrow.
Sleep well lovelies(here's 23.45)
With love
Morgue
zombiewolf:
Hope it works out for you soon, life is too short to spend much of your time being sad <3