morgue

And here I am after another day at work.
How are you guys?I hope you all had a wonderful day.
This afternoon something strange happened that made me rediscover and confirm something that someone already said to me.
I was serving some customers. In the meantime came two friends of my father to visit me (then came my father too).

After several beers one of the two men approached his friend and says to me: "Behind your darkness a light that is inside of you looking to get out and shine. It's doing everything to emerge but you do everything to prevent it. You have a great potential not only what regarding your appearance but also your character. You know you have it. Pull it out. You are a beautiful and strong woman. Do not let the darkness surround you."

Now I don't know if the motto In beer veritas but this made me think of the words that a person keeps telling me for some time.
Every day he says that I am a wonderful person and so many other beautiful things. He says I'm special.

I repeat to him that I am nothing of all this. I'm just a girl who does not like to show off. I do not like pose up to tell me every day How beautiful you are! or other assessments of this kind
Compared to the other girls of my age I can seem quite strange.
If I were really that wonderful girl that they see in me so much then why do not I feel it inside of me?

I never deemed to be beautiful .. or a nice person. I do not think I have the blinders!

After that visit I am still confused. I know I don't have a high regard for myself but that conversation left me with a question mark.