I'm going to be super honest.
These past 10 years can go fuck itself. I've never had a worse set of years in my life then the last 10 years was & I'm still dealing with the aftermath they left behind. There's been many things (& I won't go into detail about it) that has screwed me up mentally, emotional, financially, physically, & all the other lly things that there could be. I wasn't the best person I could be & did some things I ultimately regret.
And as much as they can't, I wish they could just disappear.
But, even though they defined a lot of my life, they can't define me forever. I'm learning everyday how to change, adapt & make up for what's happened. I'm still learning to heal & fix myself & my decisions.
Don't get me wrong though. There were a few things that happened in the past 10 years that were the best things of my life but the decisions I made, made me miss out on so much more that could have happened. I must admit I will live with that regret forever. But, the more I grow from those things, the better I'll be in the future where I won't miss out on anymore. Finally, I can make it worthwhile.
So, here's to 2020. Let's make it a better one.
