There are a few songs that remind me of love, of how love used to feel. In truth, it has been over four years since I have kissed a woman, or even held a woman's hand. Out of a need to learn more about who I really am I separated myself from all romantic interaction. Now, years older, and hopefully wiser, I have again opened my heart to romantic love.
Choosing to improve myself and to accept who I am has helped me better understand true romantic love. At least, I believe it has. I try to look back at the emotions I felt when I was with someone I cherished and filter out all the thoughts and feelings that were based on situation to again feel the pure love I felt then. As well, in my time of romantic abstinence I believe I learned how to love basic, real, everyday things. I learned to feel passion for the moist air of the forest in spring time, and the gentle warmth of the sun during the winter. I learned to focus on others, and to love my brothers the way they should be loved. I learned how to love others besides myself. If I concentrate I can almost combine those feelings and experience just a taste of romantic love.
Sometimes I don't even need to concentrate, I just have to hear the right melody. The perfect pitch and tune pour a thousand images into my head and I can just feel the fire of love in my veins again. I remember the feeling of looking into a lover's eyes and hardly being able to breathe. I remember how something as ordinary as a brush of their finger tips across my skin could make every cell in my body tingle. And though I know very little changes in the world around me, the simple act of romance and the feeling of love cause my mind to elevate to an entirely different universe.
It is this love, this true love, that I now seek. Indeed, it is this feeling of love that I chase. Though daunted, as my search is, by the wisdom I believe I have gained in years past I still move forward, searching for this true love. Searching for one good woman with whom I can join my heart. One good woman who can complete and be completed by the love we share, and is right by all the stars and the fate of the universe to be with for as long as our souls inhabit this Earth. Maybe soon this hope will become a reality, but I have learned nothing if not to be patient and calm. So I will search and wait until this, one of my favorite dreams, becomes a reality.
Wish me luck!
Choosing to improve myself and to accept who I am has helped me better understand true romantic love. At least, I believe it has. I try to look back at the emotions I felt when I was with someone I cherished and filter out all the thoughts and feelings that were based on situation to again feel the pure love I felt then. As well, in my time of romantic abstinence I believe I learned how to love basic, real, everyday things. I learned to feel passion for the moist air of the forest in spring time, and the gentle warmth of the sun during the winter. I learned to focus on others, and to love my brothers the way they should be loved. I learned how to love others besides myself. If I concentrate I can almost combine those feelings and experience just a taste of romantic love.
Sometimes I don't even need to concentrate, I just have to hear the right melody. The perfect pitch and tune pour a thousand images into my head and I can just feel the fire of love in my veins again. I remember the feeling of looking into a lover's eyes and hardly being able to breathe. I remember how something as ordinary as a brush of their finger tips across my skin could make every cell in my body tingle. And though I know very little changes in the world around me, the simple act of romance and the feeling of love cause my mind to elevate to an entirely different universe.
It is this love, this true love, that I now seek. Indeed, it is this feeling of love that I chase. Though daunted, as my search is, by the wisdom I believe I have gained in years past I still move forward, searching for this true love. Searching for one good woman with whom I can join my heart. One good woman who can complete and be completed by the love we share, and is right by all the stars and the fate of the universe to be with for as long as our souls inhabit this Earth. Maybe soon this hope will become a reality, but I have learned nothing if not to be patient and calm. So I will search and wait until this, one of my favorite dreams, becomes a reality.
Wish me luck!