Bored... Out... Of... My... Skull...
Ok so what's new? I got paid for everything I had worked at the jewelry store until thursday. 319 dollery-doos.
She wants me in on tuesday at 10:00-6:00. This youth employment program will subsidize her for me working 40 hours a week for three months... She says I don't have to work 40 hours a week. 10:00-6:00 for four days plus one eight hour day at the photo lab will be awesome to me I should be getting quite a bit of money... However, this means I have to buy a $60 bus pass and mom could use some more help running the house while she's away. Which is fine. I should be anyway. $300 a month will cut into my saving up. But money I'm not so concerned about.
She's tryign to get another job down there in NYC. But it's only worth staying down there if she can make 50,000 a year. Otherwise she'll come back.. She wants to come back. She's back for the weekend and she's happy to be here. But sad knowing she has to go back tomorrow. Once she does come back though. If I decide I'm not going to school in NYC, then I don't want to stick around. I think I'm going to want to be out on my own.
As lonely as it's been here. I do have trouble coexisting with my mom sometimes. We get along well but it's... I think it's just that instinct designed to get us out on our own.
I may be able to get an actual apprenticeship with my boss. Or else she might know someone I could get one with. Someone with a reputation like hers training me would mean just as much to me as saying I went to FIT in New York.
With things being as boring as they are lately. Maybe I just want to go out somewhere new, meet people, have that school expirience.
I am so not sorted out right now I can't tell what my valid reasons are for staying and what my valid reasons are for going. If i stay it might just be because of some subconcies hope that I might be with Marie again some day once she's back from school. But I might only want to go because I'm bored right now. I'm not sure it's worth my racking up $20,000 in student debt because I'm bored at the moment... Then again I looked into things I could do in town here.... I've done all of it. Or at least anything I'd have any desire to do short of Aikedo.. There's a club that's something like $30 a month... I'll work out my finances and look into it.
Next interesting thing happening? A friend of Sarita's. and an aquaintance of mine has been kicked out of her house by her parents. Zar asked if I could put her up for a night or two. Which I shall. It will be nice to have someone around. Though I don't think there's any sexual tension. I don't think she's quite my type.
Company is company though... I'll make her a nice big dinner tomorrow and give her a good cozy bed to sleep in. Hopefully put her a little more at ease than I imagine she is at the moment.
Yep. Another weekend a bust.I'm kind of upset Sarita didn't want to do anything tonight. At the same time I don't ask her if she wants to because I really need to keep away from her. Or at least keep my mind off her. Which gives me a nice little excuse to feel sorry for myself, I know. But no I am getting sick of it. I am trying to be happy. Really. It's just alot more elusive than it used to be....
Guh... Snake-snake didn't eat his second mouse. Almost didn't find the first one when it was hanging by it's skin from his teeth after a very very pitiful attempt at a strike... But the second I set ontop of his hidey-log and it was there the day after. I picked it up with the tongs and wiggled it but it must have gone bad because he burried his nose in it but didn't think it smelled enough like food. Kind of a waste of a mouse... As specialy considering I'm the one killing them. Thanks alot, Snake-snake.
Yes. The non stop rollercoaster ride that is my life...
Ok so what's new? I got paid for everything I had worked at the jewelry store until thursday. 319 dollery-doos.
She wants me in on tuesday at 10:00-6:00. This youth employment program will subsidize her for me working 40 hours a week for three months... She says I don't have to work 40 hours a week. 10:00-6:00 for four days plus one eight hour day at the photo lab will be awesome to me I should be getting quite a bit of money... However, this means I have to buy a $60 bus pass and mom could use some more help running the house while she's away. Which is fine. I should be anyway. $300 a month will cut into my saving up. But money I'm not so concerned about.
She's tryign to get another job down there in NYC. But it's only worth staying down there if she can make 50,000 a year. Otherwise she'll come back.. She wants to come back. She's back for the weekend and she's happy to be here. But sad knowing she has to go back tomorrow. Once she does come back though. If I decide I'm not going to school in NYC, then I don't want to stick around. I think I'm going to want to be out on my own.
As lonely as it's been here. I do have trouble coexisting with my mom sometimes. We get along well but it's... I think it's just that instinct designed to get us out on our own.
I may be able to get an actual apprenticeship with my boss. Or else she might know someone I could get one with. Someone with a reputation like hers training me would mean just as much to me as saying I went to FIT in New York.
With things being as boring as they are lately. Maybe I just want to go out somewhere new, meet people, have that school expirience.
I am so not sorted out right now I can't tell what my valid reasons are for staying and what my valid reasons are for going. If i stay it might just be because of some subconcies hope that I might be with Marie again some day once she's back from school. But I might only want to go because I'm bored right now. I'm not sure it's worth my racking up $20,000 in student debt because I'm bored at the moment... Then again I looked into things I could do in town here.... I've done all of it. Or at least anything I'd have any desire to do short of Aikedo.. There's a club that's something like $30 a month... I'll work out my finances and look into it.
Next interesting thing happening? A friend of Sarita's. and an aquaintance of mine has been kicked out of her house by her parents. Zar asked if I could put her up for a night or two. Which I shall. It will be nice to have someone around. Though I don't think there's any sexual tension. I don't think she's quite my type.
Company is company though... I'll make her a nice big dinner tomorrow and give her a good cozy bed to sleep in. Hopefully put her a little more at ease than I imagine she is at the moment.
Yep. Another weekend a bust.I'm kind of upset Sarita didn't want to do anything tonight. At the same time I don't ask her if she wants to because I really need to keep away from her. Or at least keep my mind off her. Which gives me a nice little excuse to feel sorry for myself, I know. But no I am getting sick of it. I am trying to be happy. Really. It's just alot more elusive than it used to be....
Guh... Snake-snake didn't eat his second mouse. Almost didn't find the first one when it was hanging by it's skin from his teeth after a very very pitiful attempt at a strike... But the second I set ontop of his hidey-log and it was there the day after. I picked it up with the tongs and wiggled it but it must have gone bad because he burried his nose in it but didn't think it smelled enough like food. Kind of a waste of a mouse... As specialy considering I'm the one killing them. Thanks alot, Snake-snake.
Yes. The non stop rollercoaster ride that is my life...
gangstaswan:
Good luck figuring out what you want to do with school. It can be a tough decision.
gypsyphoenix:
hey, nice profile pic.
