I've been having this strange obsession over my car lately....it's the ONLY thing I own that's in MY name....I wash it, I clean it...I do everything for that car that I can...
It just hit me why though...I don't have someone to give my love, affection and attention to, I have to give it to the one thing that I DO have....my car. It's kind of like a captain and his ship....the ship does nothing without him, it's just a piece of metal and wires....but with the captain in the ship, it lives, breathes, acts, supports, nurtures....
I view my car in the same way....without me, it's just pretty to look at...but with me in it....it's alive....it takes me places I can't go on my own...when I am in it, it roars...it shields me from danger on the roads....it responds to the terrain it travels on....when I am in it....
How does this make ANY sense? Well, when you have someone to give your love to, you are whole with them. You connect with them in ways that when you are alone, you feel inanimate, such as a car without it's driver, or a captain without it's ship. Together, you are alive, vibrant, feeding off of the inherent energy that comes from sharing emotions and feelings.....
I am alone, lifeless...but that's okay....
I have my car.
It just hit me why though...I don't have someone to give my love, affection and attention to, I have to give it to the one thing that I DO have....my car. It's kind of like a captain and his ship....the ship does nothing without him, it's just a piece of metal and wires....but with the captain in the ship, it lives, breathes, acts, supports, nurtures....
I view my car in the same way....without me, it's just pretty to look at...but with me in it....it's alive....it takes me places I can't go on my own...when I am in it, it roars...it shields me from danger on the roads....it responds to the terrain it travels on....when I am in it....
How does this make ANY sense? Well, when you have someone to give your love to, you are whole with them. You connect with them in ways that when you are alone, you feel inanimate, such as a car without it's driver, or a captain without it's ship. Together, you are alive, vibrant, feeding off of the inherent energy that comes from sharing emotions and feelings.....
I am alone, lifeless...but that's okay....
I have my car.
after being hurt and disappointed time and again....relying on someone else to "make me whole" is scary and something i avoid by practicing being comfortable by myself. I've learned with a lot of hard work to be happy when i'm alone, being with someone who is open to sharing love with you should be an added bonus, an enhancement.
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