Being in love is the most frustrating experience I've ever had. I know Courtney (my lady) cares about me. But just getting out of a 10 year marriage, I know she's scared. Scared about the direction our relationship is inadvertently going, scared that she's going to hurt my feelings. And I don't know what to do. I almost feel like she's trying to distance herself at times, but that's just my insecurities playing tricks on me. I know she cares, I know she wants to be with me, but I can't help but think sometimes of the worst. I haven't told her how I feel. I can't bring myself too yet. We've only been dating 4 months.
Tuesday she asked where we were at, and I didn't know exactly what to tell her. I told her that I didn't really know and that I'd love to be able to officially call her my girlfriend but I know she's not ready for that. We haven't slept together in over a week, but part of that is due to the massive migraine she had and she's been in a funk. Her mom surprised her by coming in town this weekend so I only got to see her Friday night. The way she kisses me makes my worries go away until the next time my insecurities take over.
ARRRRRG!!! SOOOO FRUSTRATING AT TIMES!!!!
Tuesday she asked where we were at, and I didn't know exactly what to tell her. I told her that I didn't really know and that I'd love to be able to officially call her my girlfriend but I know she's not ready for that. We haven't slept together in over a week, but part of that is due to the massive migraine she had and she's been in a funk. Her mom surprised her by coming in town this weekend so I only got to see her Friday night. The way she kisses me makes my worries go away until the next time my insecurities take over.
ARRRRRG!!! SOOOO FRUSTRATING AT TIMES!!!!