- on midnight's post on monsieurhat's page
- on midnight's post on monsieurhat's page
People have walked away from me my whole life and I was always the one who chased them to try and keep them in my life. My father never being around and not really wanting much to do with me seems to me like the root of this issue. When he disowned me and pretty much walked away after wiping his hands, it hurt and...
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It feels nice to wake up feeling like you are in control of most things.
For me lately that has been the feeling and I have been enjoying the ever loving shit out of it. It has made making decisions much easier, taking shit and letting it roll off my back much easier, and I just feel better all around. Maybe its the fact that...
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People always tell you they are willing to help you. They promise things, swear that they will help when you need it, and then are nowhere near when you actually need them.
For me at the moment, I am planning to move again at the end of March (6 months went by pretty quick) and start my life over, again. I had people tell me...
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So a few posts ago I wrote about having feelings for someone. I fell a little too quickly when I first got to know her, and I got over the fact that I would never be able to have a relationship with her, I let it go. For the sake of my friendship I gave it up so that things wouldn't be awkward between us....
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Monday was a pretty shitty day for me.
As soon as I woke up for work at 5 am I was having an anxiety attack. And it literally continued the whole day for me until I got off of work at 1 pm and until I got home. I figured if I took a hot shower I would feel better (it almost always helps) but...
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I feel as if I will die in my sleep. I feel as if I should say goodbye to everyone and everything I love. My heart has been racing all night and controlling my breathing hasn't worked at all. I feel as if I should enjoy every emotion one last time and experience all the things I never did. I feel as if I've lost...
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I got to spend a lot of time reflecting last night. I hate being alone with just my thoughts.
It is amazing to me how one person can say something to you and completely change your perspective on a situation. Of course for me it happens at the worst time possible, but I think it was something that needed to be said to me.
Again with the whole "getting comfortable" thing. My life has been a roller coaster of moving, and I honestly cannot...
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