I'm back from Columbus, finally. I had a nice time, but it feels good to be home.
I got to hang out with Parish and Ashbury_ while I was there, which is always fantastical.
Giiiiiirrrrrl let me tell you...
For Halloween, we went to Highball and then Skully's. I went as a pin-upy boxer (like that lady that shows up a lot in traditional tattoo flash) and GiGi_LaRoux and her boyfriend went as Dolly Parton and Kenny Rogers. I didn't get any fantastic pictures, but here are a few that we did take:
I did a lot of thinking while I was gone. Soul searching, if you will. I still feel the same way I did in my last blog: "I want to grow up and get better."
I want to focus on finding a career, not just a job. There are so many things that interest me; I feel pulled in so many directions. That makes it hard to know where to begin. Do I stay at my current job and try to pursue a promotion? Do I try somewhere else? Start my own business, like I've been saying I'm going to for the past couple years? Do I go back to school? Move? I don't know! I'm still clinging to the hope that I can turn my creative talent(s) into a career, and maybe in that sense I'm still an idealist, but I don't really know what else I can do because I'm really not good at anything practical!
I want to make more art. I'm ok, but I know I could actually be good if I put time and effort into it. And what feels better than completing a piece that you're proud of? Nothing! I'd like to start showing my work, maybe try to do some freelance illustrating and designing.
I want to nurture the relationships with the people in my life who are worthwhile, and rid myself of all the extraneous fake ass bullshit people. I've already mostly done that, and I feel so much better for it.
It's not that I'm too terribly unhappy, but my birthday is in a couple months and I'll be officially closer to 30 than 20. This isn't exactly what I saw myself doing. I know I have the ability to do the things I want to do, to be productive, and creative, and happy. I just need to step it.
This is me eating pizza and ridin' spinners:
Been bloggin:
Ummm yeah, that's about it.
Cool Jamz:
Me drown sorrow in that diablo, found bravery in my bravado.
It's been a female empowerment, R&B girl jam time in my life, or as I like to call them, Mary J Days.
This isn't Mary J but love this song so much! She sounds like Lauryn Hill AND rocks Meoldy Ehsani and 2BD!
