haven't blogged in a while, really had no motivation. My military friends understand where i am coming from on this one, i haven't received mail, messages on Facebook or emails in a long time. it really sucked, i thought i was forgotten. but just the other i day i got 10 care-packages 24 letters and my friends on Facebook, all messaged me at the same time explaining that they just didn't want to spoil the surprises. fuckers scared the shit of me. no one deployed wants to be forgotten. but hey i forgive them, they sent a lot of candy