It has been around an year since i moved to Amsterdam. So many things happened to me during this time and many questions pass through my head... i wonder am i the same person still? Have i aquired any new abilities? Sometimes i have the feeling nothing has changed inside my head...i am still the same insecure little girl that stares in the mirror and wants to fix everything she sees yet i know more about people and my judgement has gotten much better.
It was an year full of excitement, dissapointment, new experiences and friends, loneliness and maybe even love.
Some of the things that happened to me during the year:
1. I lived in so many places while in Amsterdam - as you know, it's FREAKING difficult to find a nice appartment to live in this city,everything is so crowded. I was living.in a flat with a nice dude that couldn't handle my messiness, than for two months in Leipzig, afterwards i shared a small room with two freaky gay guys who worked at the Red Light District (and were stealing my wigs) that i couldn't stand, than with another bulgarian guy who thought he can boss me around, so i moved to a hostel where i spent a month , than i shared a house with some really nice people for a while. Unfortunately i had to move out again and live with a crazy coke - addicted italian who wasn't really respecting my privacy...so i left to Sofia. I thought ...fuck it, i am going to come back here since life is much cheaper and easier. It's one month since i arrived and now... ... of course, i want to go back. Seems i don't know what i want and i am totally confused. But i am happy that i experienced so many things during this year.
2. I found some new friends. Lost some too. Maybe i learned how to be a friend myself? I don't know.
3. I fell in love twice...With the wrong people. Oh well.
4. I had my first normal conversation with my mom since a looong time. On skype.
5. I tried working as a stripper for one night - i didnt' like it and never tried again.
6.And most importantly i learned that people who say too many nice things are usually liars.
7.. K, and i just wrote my first, ( somehow meaningful) blog here on SG
Whew!
It was an year full of excitement, dissapointment, new experiences and friends, loneliness and maybe even love.
Some of the things that happened to me during the year:
1. I lived in so many places while in Amsterdam - as you know, it's FREAKING difficult to find a nice appartment to live in this city,everything is so crowded. I was living.in a flat with a nice dude that couldn't handle my messiness, than for two months in Leipzig, afterwards i shared a small room with two freaky gay guys who worked at the Red Light District (and were stealing my wigs) that i couldn't stand, than with another bulgarian guy who thought he can boss me around, so i moved to a hostel where i spent a month , than i shared a house with some really nice people for a while. Unfortunately i had to move out again and live with a crazy coke - addicted italian who wasn't really respecting my privacy...so i left to Sofia. I thought ...fuck it, i am going to come back here since life is much cheaper and easier. It's one month since i arrived and now... ... of course, i want to go back. Seems i don't know what i want and i am totally confused. But i am happy that i experienced so many things during this year.
2. I found some new friends. Lost some too. Maybe i learned how to be a friend myself? I don't know.
3. I fell in love twice...With the wrong people. Oh well.
4. I had my first normal conversation with my mom since a looong time. On skype.
5. I tried working as a stripper for one night - i didnt' like it and never tried again.
6.And most importantly i learned that people who say too many nice things are usually liars.
7.. K, and i just wrote my first, ( somehow meaningful) blog here on SG
Whew!
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xtrigger:
Your "most humbling moment" is awesome 
lucille:
You are beautiful. Good luck to you