moniface

Perhaps I find death so terrifying because it's the only thing we cannot just "try once" and "see if we like it". It's too permeant. Not to mention that after all the horrible and tragic things I've experienced and witnessed in my life, I've grown to love it. Life in general, not necessarily the the things in my life. It hurts like hell sometimes, but it's the only thing we got. I suppose I've grown accustomed to my own life as well, and this personality I've become comfortable with. I wonder if after I die, will I be in darkness, unable to reach out to those I love and tell them "It's okay." Life continues after death, and I know this is just how it is; time stops for no one and nothing, but it scares me and makes me sad to think that it will continue without (as fucking selfish as that sounds). I know that death is inevitable (I get weirded out just saying that) but I pray to God that it comes later than sooner. In the meantime, I will love life. Music, movies, friends, family, culture, art, nighttime lights, concerts, parties.. and people in general.



Life is beautiful.


I'm throwing the computer out of the window.

I told my boyfriend, who is usually brain dead that he could have bought a computer just as shitty for a lot less.


He keeps screaming at my cat, Moo. That makes me really fucking mad