Today I wake up and I don't feel any better.
My eyes, swollen from the tears,
while nothing inside of me is well rested.
Helplessness is the word that best describes my situation.
I want to find him.
To end this curiosity that lingers within my thoughts behind the silence.
I can't find an end.
Yet there is an apiphany that is realized.
How the importance of living and breathing is to me.
Yet thinking of the final end is bizarre,
How that last moment would be.
Then I begin to remember David.
My David.
I wish it was to remain mine.
I want to find him .
I need to know that he's ok...
I want know if he did or did not suffer..
I know there is sufferring either way when you die.
But in my heart he did not deserve to die.
I may have been a small part of him in his life compared to his dreams and family,
Yet there is a place for him in mine.
There is nothing I can do to feel .
My eyes, swollen from the tears,
while nothing inside of me is well rested.
Helplessness is the word that best describes my situation.
I want to find him.
To end this curiosity that lingers within my thoughts behind the silence.
I can't find an end.
Yet there is an apiphany that is realized.
How the importance of living and breathing is to me.
Yet thinking of the final end is bizarre,
How that last moment would be.
Then I begin to remember David.
My David.
I wish it was to remain mine.
I want to find him .
I need to know that he's ok...
I want know if he did or did not suffer..
I know there is sufferring either way when you die.
But in my heart he did not deserve to die.
I may have been a small part of him in his life compared to his dreams and family,
Yet there is a place for him in mine.
There is nothing I can do to feel .
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How can I cope with such a great loss? When 75,000 of the people dead from the tsunami are not going home for the proper buriel that they deserve?
My friend is among those 75,000 who are elbow to elbow in many mass graves? He won't come home...He's all alone.
I can't ease this.. I keep thinking in a much wider spectrum.