sometimes there are these moments where i feel as if i am the crazy in the world full of sane. moments tin which i am unhinged. everything looks and sounds different. feels, smells and tastes different.
i wonder what it is that sets me off. these past two months have been the worst. for the past three years this hasn't been happening to me this often. like... it happens but few and far between. and i usually get over it. lately, its been lasting for a week. of course all my friends will say that i usually don't make much sense and am weird to them... but when i'm like this i don't seem normal to even myself. its not a sense of self hatred or dislike. i feel disconnected and am looking down upon everything. like everything here is replaceable. people, cherished items and pets. its so depressing.
hopefully i be back to normal by the time i head over to kylie's house tuesday. i'm finally going to meet her family. <3
ps: i think i will quit smoking. its been tasting like ass lately.
i wonder what it is that sets me off. these past two months have been the worst. for the past three years this hasn't been happening to me this often. like... it happens but few and far between. and i usually get over it. lately, its been lasting for a week. of course all my friends will say that i usually don't make much sense and am weird to them... but when i'm like this i don't seem normal to even myself. its not a sense of self hatred or dislike. i feel disconnected and am looking down upon everything. like everything here is replaceable. people, cherished items and pets. its so depressing.
hopefully i be back to normal by the time i head over to kylie's house tuesday. i'm finally going to meet her family. <3
ps: i think i will quit smoking. its been tasting like ass lately.