..and if youre so very good looking, then why do you sleep alone tonight? Because tonight is just like any other night. Thats why I sleep alone tonight..
So in a conscious effort to avoid any blatantly self destructive behavior, I managed to avoid drinking myself into lonely oblivion at any parties this weekend. Although the severe side effect to this was an overwhelming sense of discomfort when sitting in a hot tub sober with a predominantly male population. Yeah. no more sober hot tub action, unless there is a female immediately to either side of me to dilute the sausage factor
Speaking of testosterone.. I definitely lost a few precious masculinity points by watching my old VHS copy of Pretty in Pink this weekend. Wonderful 80s teen sappy goodness. I absolutely love Annie Potts in this movie. Her voice is like nails on a chalkboard. But her new wave outfits, and makeup have me pineing longingly for a girl so sweet, and with such fashion sense.
Spent all Saturday in S.F. pedaling my out of shape ass up and down the hills. Its was a wonderful reprieve from the horrid valley heat. And we sessioned one of the best veggie restaurants Ive ever been to while in china town.
Family get togethers seriously make me feel like I need to go see a therapist for social anxiety. I had to leave three times from our 4th festivities because the environment felt so overwhelming. I cant figure out how I can feel comfortable speaking to a large crowd. Yet sitting in a room, making small talk with close family and acquaintances brings me to the verge of freaking out. I absolutely love all of these people on an individual basis. But whenever we get together for trivial manufactured holidays I inevitably feel like I need to crush my skull in a vice to end it all. That, and watching $50 worth of gunpowder burn felt really stupid. God damnit, I could have paid my cell phone bill instead of buying fireworks
So in a conscious effort to avoid any blatantly self destructive behavior, I managed to avoid drinking myself into lonely oblivion at any parties this weekend. Although the severe side effect to this was an overwhelming sense of discomfort when sitting in a hot tub sober with a predominantly male population. Yeah. no more sober hot tub action, unless there is a female immediately to either side of me to dilute the sausage factor
Speaking of testosterone.. I definitely lost a few precious masculinity points by watching my old VHS copy of Pretty in Pink this weekend. Wonderful 80s teen sappy goodness. I absolutely love Annie Potts in this movie. Her voice is like nails on a chalkboard. But her new wave outfits, and makeup have me pineing longingly for a girl so sweet, and with such fashion sense.
Spent all Saturday in S.F. pedaling my out of shape ass up and down the hills. Its was a wonderful reprieve from the horrid valley heat. And we sessioned one of the best veggie restaurants Ive ever been to while in china town.
Family get togethers seriously make me feel like I need to go see a therapist for social anxiety. I had to leave three times from our 4th festivities because the environment felt so overwhelming. I cant figure out how I can feel comfortable speaking to a large crowd. Yet sitting in a room, making small talk with close family and acquaintances brings me to the verge of freaking out. I absolutely love all of these people on an individual basis. But whenever we get together for trivial manufactured holidays I inevitably feel like I need to crush my skull in a vice to end it all. That, and watching $50 worth of gunpowder burn felt really stupid. God damnit, I could have paid my cell phone bill instead of buying fireworks
I should watch Pretty in Pink, I haven't seen that movie in awhile. It's usually playing in the middle of the day on LIfetime or something, hahaha.
Sorry to hear that your fourth of July sucked. I got out of the festivities and worked, made time and a half, which is a bonus. The fourth has never really been that big of a deal to me.
My family gets overwhelming, too. They are all loud and have a "tough love" attitude about everything. Families are always screwed up.
I like your most recent photographs although they're not new, I haven't checked them out 'til now. They're wonderful and inspiring.
Allright, this has gotten way too long. Take care.