"I ain't bound for glory
I'm bound for flames
One mans story
Is another mans shame"
Hmmm so I had an amazing weekend thanks to
Kage. All is well, and now that I think back on it all I can only think of two other times I've been so happy and relaxed in my life. Neither of which took place on this continent. All the sordid details are just for me and the girl though.
Art fag rant spoilered for the ADD'd
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
So I ended my 5 day weekend with a meeting that I've been hanging on and stressing over for a while. It went really well though, and if things continue I might finally be able to consider myself a published fashion photographer very soon.
So why am I frantic still? Mostly just because I'm a nutcase about my work.. Anybody who has shot with me knows that I'm still a film shooter. Most people don't know why, and most people will never understand why. The reasons are very clear to me though. And arguing it is like arguing with a painter over why they use a certain type of brush. The viewer may not notice any difference but to the artist it's a glaring beacon. It's the subtleties that go unnoticed that make the difference between good work and bad work.
With this new prospect I'm venturing into the territory where I'm going to have to start shooting digital. For anybody who really really knows the difference between the mediums, and knows how it reflects on my style. This is akin to taking the painters brushes away from him, and handing him some twigs.
I'm not some nutcase purist who likes to stick to the old ways out of stubbornness, or fear of technology. I use the tools that I feel achieve my vision most easily. If the move to digital capture was motivated based on an increased quality of work I would be all for it. But the fact is that it isn't. It's motivated purely from a convenience, or a cost cutting standpoint imposed by a client. A lot of what I do can't be done digitally and it can't be faked in photoshop. All the marketing hype and tech specs in the world can't change that.
I've spent the last two days pouring over information, and balancing options to try and figure out what compromises I'm going to have to make in my vision, to keep in step with modern production. I'm hoping that the magazine editor has the sense to allow me to do things they way they need to be done in order to get the look she seemed to approve of in my portfolio. And not try to impose a different set of tools on me, yet expect the same results.
I'm not holding my breath though. And I'm going to continue studying and expecting the worst. Hopefully this will all be a moot point in 5 or 10 years. But for right now it just saddens me that ignorance, and lowered standards are becoming the norm in production of commercial media.
