mohawk_138

I'm torn between moods right now. I'm in a great mood because I've got a date secured with a really sweet and beautiful girl (See the Apr 19th 12:14 entry). I'm in a bad mood because I'm going to have to kill my one roomy. I almost punched him within a minute of waking up today. I'm not a generally violent person (despite my love of hockey), and it takes a good amount of bullshit before I even yell at someone much less have a deep desire to cause them physical pain.

I haven't been in a fight in years. Not out of lack of hatred mind you, but I fear that if I actually fight someone I might either kill them or severely fuck them up. I was in Tae Kwon Do for five years, and having the knowledge I have of how to really beat the hell out of people makes me worry about hitting someone *once* much less multiple times. Admittedly, I'm not in quite as good of shape as I was when I finished taking my lessons, but I was a second degree brown belt, that was fighting on a black belt level. I have won power breaking tournaments. When you know that every time you hit someone you will be breaking a bone, regardless of which bone it may be, you know that you have something you will never be able to use unless your life is in severe danger.

***Back to the happy stuff***

Anyway, I've been talking to this girl for a while now, and I realized that her smile is possibly the most beautiful thing I have seen in...... ever. Half the time I'm talking to her I'm glowing just from seeing it. She is beautiful as can be in my eyes. I just can't get her out of my mind. Her face just draws me in, to the point that I consider calling it a face to be almost blasphemous becuse everyone has a face, but no one has one like hers. Such radiance.... I am amazed that she's actually interested in me, but I'm not complaining one bit. I have not the belief that any woman will want to be with me, but the belief that if I don't try, I'll miss wonderful opportunities like this.