Well, I had an interesting day yesterday. Started out by going to the gym first thing. I had a great workout and to make it even better there was a hottie at the gym that was checking me out. Talk about a confidence booster. If only I had the confidence to actually talk to her. I'm thinking that I need a way bigger boost to get to where I can actually talk to women. I'm still pretty pathetic when it comes to that. Not that it matters too much anyway since I do have a girlfriend. Spent the rest of yesterday with her. We had some really good sex, even watched some good old lesbian porn for the second round. Later on in the day she kind of blindsided me though. We were joking around about sleeping with other people and she got all serious on me and said that if I was ever going to do that I just needed to tell her. Not really sure how to take that since the last time I slept with someone other than her she freaked and we weren't even dating then. Of course there are times when I just don't know if she's the one for me. We are very different people after all and we're at very different places in our lives. Unfortunately, if we ever broke up I'd be fucked since I can't talk to women to ask them out and those few times that I have in the past I've always been turned down. There seems to be something about me that turns women off and I've never been able to figure out what it is. Could be the lack of confidence I suppose, but if I can get more attractive women checking me out that problem could fix itself. I've already made huge progress with this thanks to all of you. I mean, how else would I have been able to develop enough courage to dance around and show myself naked on videos for you? Anyway, if any of you has any ideas on how I can gain even more confidence or on how I can figure out if I really should be with my girlfriend or not, let me know. Well, hope everyone is having a great weekend. Stay beautiful SG.
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_rua_:
Always try & be yourself as much as you can, nerves do kick in & can make things a little bit funny/awkward/strange. Being confident in yourself is a huge thing too. Maybe you & your girlfriend aren't meant to be together, your are on different path! Take this time to share your little journey & enjoy each other, it will run it's own course. Don't be scared to go & chat to the girl in the gym, my fiance & in the gym!
trebble:
aww why thank you!