mockingbird

Fuck, I don't know what I'm going to do.

If you can't tell from reading my blogs, I get anxious REALLY easily... Mostly in social situations. I avoid meeting and talking to people. And even when I try to, it doesn't go very well. Thus me not doing well making friends in college.

I've applied for eight jobs through online apps. I have four to bring in and two more to do online. I also want to stop by one place and ask if they have openings, as my friend said they often do.

I don't know if I can do it. I'm trying but I get panicked when I start going to do so.

Blah. I feel like I'm not going to get a job anyway.

Do you dress up just to drop off an application? I don't even have "dressy" clothes.


EDIT:

Editing this to be a little less anxiety-filled.

Sooo, my birthday is the end of the month. No clue what I want to do. No clue what I want. My ma bought me a bag and a necklace (which she gave to me early because she's weird) and a 3-day pass to Wizard Con. My options left are either...

1.) Get an iPhone... Which I feel weird about. I'd be paying for like 75% of it... But I'd feel bratty having one and I also feel weird having a 400 dollar phone in my pocket. But they are pretty sweet and I could use a lot of the features.

2.) Getting the tattoo I mentioned a few blogs ago.

I really have no idea. I also think I want my parents to take me to this restaurant called Karen's Cooked. Which is a vegan/veggie restaurant (there's also a Karen's Raw). Or maybe Joy Yee's?

I kind of want to go to Hooter's with my friends. Hahaha.

Told my boy I don't really want him to buy me anything. I'd rather just have handmade/thoughtful stuff and maybe to be taken out somewhere? I just want a special day.