mockingbird

I've been having periods lately where I get really sad/close to crying. And I hate feeling like this.

I hate not having friends at college. I mean, I know a few people. In one of my classes I have people to talk to. But other than that, I don't have any close friends.

Outside of class I either:

- hang out with my roommate, who obviously makes me crazy
- go to lunch with the girl who's going to be my roommate next year, but we arent very close and she goes home all the time
- hang out with this slightly annoying girl with my roommate
- hang out with these two nice girls on my floor with my roommate

Other than that, I just hang out with my boyfriend.

I hate this. I hate feeling dependent on him. I need to make friends.

I know, I know... I'm supposed to join clubs. And I will next year. But until the year is over, I don't think I'm going to meet anyone and it makes me feel really alone.

I don't know what I'm going to do next year when my roommate is gone on weekends.

This whole thing makes me feel pathetic. I've always been bad at making friends but I had them in junior high and high school. Yeah, it was a small group, but they were real friends who were close.

I don't want to be sad like this.