day 2 since the bad news.. and last night i received a call from my cousin back home telling me three ids were killed in a car accident in TN. he didnt know the names so i told him to let me know tomorrow. i hope .. i hope so high that i didnt know them. i cant take any more..
last nite i had a two glasses of champagne..one for me. one for Gwen.. and i toasted to another trip to a wonderful place. thats how i remember most...she'd always write me about her trips to places all over the world. and she made me feel the sun kissed rays and the see the blinding reflection of the ocean water. she had a way with words. she should have been a journalist. but instead, she wrote to me about it. beautiful..absolutely beautiful.
i sat here for the longest time, reading over all the stories of her trips to Georgian rodeos and sun-covered beaches in Florida, and the Italian quezines and fine wines. and as i first read them when she sent them to me, i never knew why she enjoyed everything so much. it was because she wouldnt be able to experience it for much longer.. she knew her time was nearing. she woke up with the sun every morning and slept late with the moon at night. everyday savoring every moment. she drank and devoured each sensation food and beverage offered and drowned herself with beautiful scenery. and now she is in heaven doing everything as she did down here on earth. and writing me about it. now i await for that last email from her.. telling me what her heaven is like.
i miss you.. i miss you so much.
last nite i had a two glasses of champagne..one for me. one for Gwen.. and i toasted to another trip to a wonderful place. thats how i remember most...she'd always write me about her trips to places all over the world. and she made me feel the sun kissed rays and the see the blinding reflection of the ocean water. she had a way with words. she should have been a journalist. but instead, she wrote to me about it. beautiful..absolutely beautiful.
i sat here for the longest time, reading over all the stories of her trips to Georgian rodeos and sun-covered beaches in Florida, and the Italian quezines and fine wines. and as i first read them when she sent them to me, i never knew why she enjoyed everything so much. it was because she wouldnt be able to experience it for much longer.. she knew her time was nearing. she woke up with the sun every morning and slept late with the moon at night. everyday savoring every moment. she drank and devoured each sensation food and beverage offered and drowned herself with beautiful scenery. and now she is in heaven doing everything as she did down here on earth. and writing me about it. now i await for that last email from her.. telling me what her heaven is like.
i miss you.. i miss you so much.
Im sorry so many bad things are falling upon you right now. I hope you can stand up and move on (not forget but go on with life) and be the person you are cause i think your amazing and im sure soooo many other people think the same. Your friend is at peace. It sucks but Im sure she misses you from afar as well.
Kisses and good thoughts be with you
Luv Cat
ps Im soooo sorry if this doesn't make sense im a bit drunk right now hehe