Tonight
like so many other nights
i walk
it's dark
sheltered.
under scarce street lights,
thoughts, always thoughts
so many
in the gentle air
piercing my fragile consciousness
racing nervously, uncontrollably
what would happem
if i didn't spare these moments
just once
to feel sorry for myself
not stop to think
of all the songs i'll never hear
all the words i'll never read
and...
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like so many other nights
i walk
it's dark
sheltered.
under scarce street lights,
thoughts, always thoughts
so many
in the gentle air
piercing my fragile consciousness
racing nervously, uncontrollably
what would happem
if i didn't spare these moments
just once
to feel sorry for myself
not stop to think
of all the songs i'll never hear
all the words i'll never read
and...
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catiedid:
Happy Valentine's Day Beautiful Woman!! 
josephene:
Happy Valentines Day!! 
So much has happened since I started writing here... and it has become something completely different than what I initially thought it would be... doesn't that seem to be the case with so many things in life... I feel closer to the people on these pages sometimes than I do from the people I see everyday... how does that work? is it because I keep...
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josephene:
Dang right you deserve it! What I have found in my experiences with other people, the ones who take and take are the ones who last through the phases, the ones who give and give are the ones who last through the ages. If someone cares enough about you they will be observant of your feelings and needs as well as their own. Not choosing one over the other, but sensitive to them. Or maybe I'm just living in a dream world...could be the cold meds talking...it's great to see your words again...I'm glad you girls had a good time, I've enjoyed looking at the pictures, more than once, I'm afraid 
catiedid:
Beautiful woman you are back!!! I missed you this weekend. How was the city? Did you have fun? I am in the funk of all funks and I feel I am losing a precious part of me. Lunch? Drinks? something this week?
We would rock in a beach house on the lake. All of us. And we would make millions as a reality show. we are way too cool not to!!!
We would rock in a beach house on the lake. All of us. And we would make millions as a reality show. we are way too cool not to!!!
Sometimes life throws you little things, little moments that can be monumental... and this... i can't begin... when something/someone turns you on to such an extent that it makes those few minutes indescribable... the stage, the opportunity, the backdrop is perfect and this is what you get : pure beauty...
if you don't believe me check out some of the pics
sorry kids, we forgot...
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if you don't believe me check out some of the pics
sorry kids, we forgot...
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josephene:
Hey lady, just checking in...miss hearing what's happening with you, write soon. 
mkdaniella:
[Edited on Feb 05, 2004 6:41PM]
[Edited on Feb 05, 2004 6:41PM]
What exactly is the meaning of the words "friend", "partner", "companion", "lover"? Are they always so different and what happens when the lines blurr? The hardest thing for me is that although I love words... the inadequacies of written/verbal language can be so frustrating. The people that are close to me hold a place that is so unique and special that I am reluctant to...
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catiedid:
the whole relationship thing is too complicated. we go through life looking for something/anything/someone to love and we find it and it isn't enough. Unfair of me to make that blanket statement about everyone. You have something so amazing. Not too many people have it together the way you seem to. I know it isn't always a bed of roses, but you have such a healthy, open, realistic outlook. I envy you!
mkdaniella:
I'm not quite sure it's exactly healthy but it is open and I do try my best to be realistic given the romantic/idealistic tendencies that can overwhelm and annoy as you can see by Mr. Screwtape's comments
And yes, it is definitely not always a bed of roses but then again if it was I would have to submit all involved here to some exceedingly dull narrative
I don't really know... most of the time I'm just trying to figure out whether the choices I make are honorable ones and not by anybody else's standards or any other group that claims to know the right way but on my own terms... There's a heck of a lot of stumbling and falling flat on my face along the way...
but mostly, sometimes I just need help chilling out, taking a few deep breaths, enjoying the lollipops and keeping myself from making an embarassing display
ps- I envy you more!!
And yes, it is definitely not always a bed of roses but then again if it was I would have to submit all involved here to some exceedingly dull narrative
I don't really know... most of the time I'm just trying to figure out whether the choices I make are honorable ones and not by anybody else's standards or any other group that claims to know the right way but on my own terms... There's a heck of a lot of stumbling and falling flat on my face along the way...
but mostly, sometimes I just need help chilling out, taking a few deep breaths, enjoying the lollipops and keeping myself from making an embarassing display
ps- I envy you more!!
I know that people say conflict is not necessarily a bad thing and in my experience many good things come from conflict. But it can be so ugly and bring so much distortion that I avoid it all cost, wanting positive change to come from other channels... Am I just making the conflict worse because I hold on to the feelings for so long that...
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josephene:
Thanks for adding me...
catiedid:
I would no longer be complete without it. I fear the change. I fear the responsibility.