mizzinky

you have old memories and time goes by and you think wow, that then is moving further and further from the present. you are finally happy. you dreamt about being happy and wondered what it would take. you thought about money and love and stability. you realized that it's about being at peace with your situation which will be different in 2 minutes anyway, so what does it matter. if i am finally at peace or at least contemplating that i will be at peace. when nothing is wrong you breathe easier and sleep better. you remember and can say thats what shaped me but i wouldn't trade now for then since now is so much better than you thought it would be. you want now to be all the time. then you realize it is.