miyu

I'm starting to crack.
I had a teary moment sitting on my front step. Just nerves and a lot of things I guess.

It's one of those times I really hate being out here. There isn't anyone to lean on really. Aleks needs me to be a good strong mom and well, I will be.

It's one of those times you want the world to go fuck itself because you are tired of trying to keep your part of it going.

It's one of those times you wish there was someone else to make dinner or you had some money to just get take-out.

It's one of those times where you wish you had someone to make love to in order to block out the world for even just a little while.

It's one of those times where you wish there were other dancers or artists around who could call and ask how the show was going. People who actually considered that maybe that's what might be more important.

It's one of those times when the phone rings and you wish it wasn't work related but just someone calling to say hello.

It's one of those times where you feel like the world just forgot you were a person who feels and hurts and gets tired like everybody else.

It's one of those times where I miss my mom and all her strength when I mine has run out.

It's one of those times where you wonder if you should be doing a regular everyday job instead of all this craziness.

It's one of those times I caught a glance of myself in the mirror and really saw the hollows under my eyes and was surprised.

It's one of those times where I wish I wasn't so bloody tired and that my ass would quit hurting......there a muscles in there I never thought I had. Internal rotators......I wonder if I will have any left by the time I'm 35.

It's one of those times where I asked, "Mere, wtf are you doing girl??"