Well this new years was crazy and intense. I don't think I've ever had such a crazy new year's. I was up until nine the next morning. Slept a few hours and then was up the rest of the day.
Did I get a midnight kiss? No, not exactly. I received multiple kisses later on in the night though. Good ones too. Hehehehe....... at one point, I kissed my gay friend and damn he is a good kisser! GEEZ!
I haven't danced that hard in so long. It was amazing. The music took me over. I so needed that....I didn't realize how badly until I was in that moment and it was just me and the music.
I made a lot of resolutions to myself that night and the following day. One's that I plan to keep. Some of them are very personal and won't be repeated here but others like putting my nose to the grindstone can be.
That night I connected with some friends in an intense way. It put a new spin on our friendships and deepened my perception of those people.
I also know I am still very deeply in love with a certain someone and there is an emptiness in my heart where that person was. I really don't think you pick the people you love, the love picks you. In so many ways, this boi and I were never actually together.... but connections happen in strange ways I suppose. I also think there are so many different shades of love and each one is tailored to the person who receives it.....
However, I also know that I am very much on my way to going beyond that emptiness. That there is so much to see and do and experience in my life right now. The universe has channeled me in directions, that I believe, if I work my best, will lead me to other open doors.....
The dancing boi also showed up at the party and made my night. Just when my heart had a tiny shadow of emptiness, there he was ready to wisk me around and he kissed that feeling right out of my heart. Thank-you dancing boi! Thank-you universe! I truly believe the universe does not want me to be sad this year. There are times to be sad but not this time. Things just keep happening to scoop me up and out of it. Yay for wings!
This is my year for making new and interesting friends, doing new and interesting things and being excited by life!
Did I get a midnight kiss? No, not exactly. I received multiple kisses later on in the night though. Good ones too. Hehehehe....... at one point, I kissed my gay friend and damn he is a good kisser! GEEZ!
I haven't danced that hard in so long. It was amazing. The music took me over. I so needed that....I didn't realize how badly until I was in that moment and it was just me and the music.
I made a lot of resolutions to myself that night and the following day. One's that I plan to keep. Some of them are very personal and won't be repeated here but others like putting my nose to the grindstone can be.
That night I connected with some friends in an intense way. It put a new spin on our friendships and deepened my perception of those people.
I also know I am still very deeply in love with a certain someone and there is an emptiness in my heart where that person was. I really don't think you pick the people you love, the love picks you. In so many ways, this boi and I were never actually together.... but connections happen in strange ways I suppose. I also think there are so many different shades of love and each one is tailored to the person who receives it.....
However, I also know that I am very much on my way to going beyond that emptiness. That there is so much to see and do and experience in my life right now. The universe has channeled me in directions, that I believe, if I work my best, will lead me to other open doors.....
The dancing boi also showed up at the party and made my night. Just when my heart had a tiny shadow of emptiness, there he was ready to wisk me around and he kissed that feeling right out of my heart. Thank-you dancing boi! Thank-you universe! I truly believe the universe does not want me to be sad this year. There are times to be sad but not this time. Things just keep happening to scoop me up and out of it. Yay for wings!
This is my year for making new and interesting friends, doing new and interesting things and being excited by life!
sculptor666:
the divot is called... the superasternal notch. had to whip out gray's anatomy fo that one
skzoid:
Yes...I believe Love picks you. It sounds like you had fun. Congratulations. Stay positive, it's good for you and good for those around you.