Thursday May 10, 2007

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Firstly i wanna say thank you to everyone who left me such lovely comments kiss i love you all and i'm feeling much better, so i'm sorry about that!

Secondly (weird and confusing)

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i wanted to tell you about a message i got on myspace (non SG one), it was from the last teacher i had and possibly the most amazing and talented guy i've ever known, everyone had such a massive amount of respect for this guy.
He tells me in this message about a reunion! firstly i think, cool, then i think about it again, i went to a performing arts school where at the end of the year everyone was auditioning for all the top drama and dance schools, now i think i'd feel stupid meeting everyone and them telling me about all the amazing things they've done while i (to them) haven't done much.
mad i'm really confused about how to word what i'm trying to say, basically i don't know if i'm worried what they'll think, or if deep down i'm not happy with choices i've made in my life confused
I'm sure i'm happy but i guess i could've done more if i'd pushed myself, if i had the confidence to go after what i want, what do i want?
And now i have all the 'what ifs?' going round in my head, for example, what if i had gone to drama school? would i have met the love of my life? would i have been happier been told how to act rather than act out myself in my band?
And if, overall, i am completely happy with the way my life is going, why do i feel embarrased to tell people about it?
You know i think my main preoblem is my job! it's not glamorous, i give up my identity everytime i step foot in the place and maybe it just proves to everyone that i'm a bit of a loser frown
I'm 24 and i don't have a clue what i want to do, thats weird right?
Damn, sorry i was fine when i started this blog but i've just typed every thought thats gone into my head and i'm confused so i don't expect you to understand a word of this.



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bazookajoe:
Yet again relax, its all about perceptions & expectations, the main perception being, everyone else is streets ahead, and we will never catch up, doomed for second best. Maybe your colleagues are a bit ahead at the moment, and they appear to be riding the crest of a wave, but in reality they could be the saddest loneliest people on the planet, remember you have to live closer than next store to know somebody.

Though you could use thier success as a positive, if they can do it, so can you. Normally in life you get a second/another chance at most things, take my forth marriage (joke).

Don't forget you bring other things to the table, warmth, friendleness, joy, they all add up

Lets be happy with our lot,

Andrew

heavenandhell:
There will be others, who like you, have taken a different path and even the ones that did go on for auditions may not necessarily have got very far. It's all a matter of right place at right time. If you are content and fairly happy, then I'd say you are in the right place for you.......at the moment. There is nothing to say you can't change things later on, anyone can do that no matter what their age. I'm almost 39 and still haven't really found my place, although I have discovered I can entertain through writing, so am following that path at the moment. In life, all that really matters, is being happy.

Take care.

kiss kiss

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