I am tired of letting my social anxiety disorder hold me back.
I am tired of not looking the way that I want to.
I am tired of "waiting until tomorrow".
I am tired of letting my depression control me.
I am tired of not trying because of a fear of failure.
I haven't felt like myself for years, sometimes for short periods of time I do, but I want to feel like me all the time. The last time the pink house clique got together, I felt like I was an unsocial ass. I went to bed at like 3:00 or something while everyone stayed up socializing. That's not me but I let my own nonsense control me. BAH I need to get my head out of my ass and start living again. I'm glad that I have my queen (he he he) because if i didn't i don't know where i would be.
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Now that I've gotten the whining out of the way I'll talk about how excited i am about the cleveland after party next weekend. I traded in some clothes at rag-o-rama and got a killer outfit. (why is it the only good stuff I ever find there is always in the girls section?) I just hope that alot of my peeps show up, I miss everyone soo much. Oh well gotta go clean the house and do some laundry. Be safe.
p.s. ...remember...
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I am tired of not looking the way that I want to.
I am tired of "waiting until tomorrow".
I am tired of letting my depression control me.
I am tired of not trying because of a fear of failure.
I haven't felt like myself for years, sometimes for short periods of time I do, but I want to feel like me all the time. The last time the pink house clique got together, I felt like I was an unsocial ass. I went to bed at like 3:00 or something while everyone stayed up socializing. That's not me but I let my own nonsense control me. BAH I need to get my head out of my ass and start living again. I'm glad that I have my queen (he he he) because if i didn't i don't know where i would be.
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Now that I've gotten the whining out of the way I'll talk about how excited i am about the cleveland after party next weekend. I traded in some clothes at rag-o-rama and got a killer outfit. (why is it the only good stuff I ever find there is always in the girls section?) I just hope that alot of my peeps show up, I miss everyone soo much. Oh well gotta go clean the house and do some laundry. Be safe.
p.s. ...remember...
Current music selection
You folks have fun next weekend.