I guess if I'm manic, I'll have to invent some new way to de-stigmatize the word. Because I'm not hurting anyone. I've never been so happy in my life. I think some people want my bubble to pop. I'm sorry they get satisfaction from Schadenfreude. Because this is life. This is what I've been missing all these years. It's not that I wasn't living, just that I wasn't truly ALIVE. When I said I used to fear death, it was out of a crushing vision of being six feet under after a life of mediocrity. If death comes today I say, well ok...but lemme give everyone who enriches my life a big fat hug first. I love you all.