mistressmedusa

ok having recovered from the wole car getting egged incident. I am prepare to move forward with my life.

I am still a roller coaster of a mess. ups and downs.

I like the schedule I am working at the moment and I am trying to enjoy it while it lasts... but, the looming darkeness that it will not last is bringing me down.

It has been six months now, and I am still technically "unemployed" this is causing me stress. And, as I look back on my computer files, I realize that I have been searching for a new design job since 2002. that's four bleeding years.

I try not to beat myself up, But WHY has no one been willing to hire me. I have a great portfolio. I have a great track record in regards to employment. so what's the deal?

and, did I mention, that my lap top went kaput? it sucks sitting at a desk in an undecorated room with cords strung across the house just so that I can be "connected"

ok... well, you know, I have more I could say, but I have to get off to work soon.

I promise more upbeat posts to follow... some day!