Hung out with the loverly Roxy today- she told me she needed to spruce her new place up a bit, and only one thing occurred to my rotten, addled mind- Archie McPhee's! Ikea? Pfftt! Crate and Barrel? Fuck that shit! Where else can you buy a pair of X-Ray Speks and a body bag in the same store?
After that we just kinda bummed around Seattle- it's always nice to hang out with my SG friends in a non-SG setting. For some reason, I don't feel like I have to be "MisterSatan"- I'm just Randy, a guy who made some friends through the internet. Either way, that makes me happy. I don't really like acting like my wild and crazy alter-ego, but put me at an event, and I kinda do it without thinking. Sometimes it's great, sometimes it gets me in trouble, but one thing's for sure- it can be really tiring sometimes. To thine own self be true, something something.
Still getting used to the new meds. Depressed wouldn't be a good word to describe my mood- in fact, I've actually felt rather good in the past few days. I think "subdued" is a more appropriate description of how I've felt lately. And it's not the meds- well, at least not just the meds. I'm not sure what it is- but a lot of things seem muted, somehow. The volume has been turned down. Edges seem softer. A little tiny bit of the worry is gone. Which is good- hell, it's great- and don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I wanna know what I did so I can do more.
I think the main goal of my life is to eliminate stressful situations if I can, so I can better deal with the ones I can't. Of course, this is just speculation.
After that we just kinda bummed around Seattle- it's always nice to hang out with my SG friends in a non-SG setting. For some reason, I don't feel like I have to be "MisterSatan"- I'm just Randy, a guy who made some friends through the internet. Either way, that makes me happy. I don't really like acting like my wild and crazy alter-ego, but put me at an event, and I kinda do it without thinking. Sometimes it's great, sometimes it gets me in trouble, but one thing's for sure- it can be really tiring sometimes. To thine own self be true, something something.
Still getting used to the new meds. Depressed wouldn't be a good word to describe my mood- in fact, I've actually felt rather good in the past few days. I think "subdued" is a more appropriate description of how I've felt lately. And it's not the meds- well, at least not just the meds. I'm not sure what it is- but a lot of things seem muted, somehow. The volume has been turned down. Edges seem softer. A little tiny bit of the worry is gone. Which is good- hell, it's great- and don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I wanna know what I did so I can do more.
I think the main goal of my life is to eliminate stressful situations if I can, so I can better deal with the ones I can't. Of course, this is just speculation.
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catboner:
the best way to live your life is by making sure youre rocking ALL THE TIME. anytime youre near a stereo - crank the volume as high as you can, anytime you get invited to a funeral - bring a keg, anytime there are grandparents nearby - start throwing bricks. its just that simple.
atrasties:
Good stuff man, I always smile when I read you having good days. I like good people having good things. I used good 5 times there. Had to count the one in saying how many too. Night.