At tawnya's place right now- we just got back from seeing the new Matrix movie. I dunno what everyone is bitching about- I really dug it. I really liked the philosophical issues it raised- it really got into more of the issues with reality and simulation that it touched on in the first one.
I'm wondering if me dropping out of school this quarter is really a good idea- but at this point it really doesn't matter; the damage has been done. I will have three F's on my transcript, and the government will cut my funding for school. Honestly, though, at this point I'm not sure if I really care. I'm tired. I'm wondering if it's really worth it, to pursue all this learning, if I'm too scattered to remember any of it, or too tired to be any good at it. Once again, I'm faced with a choice between success and sanity. All I want is a chance to try and repair the synapses and neurons I've blown this quarter worrying about this shit.
Is a high-level five-figure salary really worth all this? I seriously doubt the assholes who get paid all this money worked this hard.
In other news, I keep wanting to believe that any woman that doesn't want to be with me is either crazy or stupid or has issues or whatever... but I think the truth is I just suck.
I'm wondering if me dropping out of school this quarter is really a good idea- but at this point it really doesn't matter; the damage has been done. I will have three F's on my transcript, and the government will cut my funding for school. Honestly, though, at this point I'm not sure if I really care. I'm tired. I'm wondering if it's really worth it, to pursue all this learning, if I'm too scattered to remember any of it, or too tired to be any good at it. Once again, I'm faced with a choice between success and sanity. All I want is a chance to try and repair the synapses and neurons I've blown this quarter worrying about this shit.
Is a high-level five-figure salary really worth all this? I seriously doubt the assholes who get paid all this money worked this hard.
In other news, I keep wanting to believe that any woman that doesn't want to be with me is either crazy or stupid or has issues or whatever... but I think the truth is I just suck.
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cheers mate!!!
uncle V
But I was convinced that the factory form of college where you go in the door and after four solid years of hving the brain filled and emptied and pushed and pulled and stretched like a taffy, yer supposed to come out this smarter person ready to be a good worker. what a load. anyhow. I say take the break. rest...regroup...do some study on your own and go back when you feel like it. I mean...what the hell are you in a rush to get to retirement or what?
I cannot claim to know the minds of women. I don't think you suck...but then I'm not a girl and I've seen you do karaoke.